I’d like to be the angel,
not the meanie gnome.
I’d like to be sweet little one,
not the wrecker of your home.

In my little thoughts,
I’d like to keep you by
In my little calls,
I’d like to let you fly

For if I cannot
I’d rather walk away
I gave you my soul
I came not to play

I have been loved
and you can’t
I have been thought of
and you just spent.

Let me see the good in me
Let me be free.

supreme emptiness
that’s what i took into my hands
of deepest emptiness
if emptiness ever did have its dimensions.

i was filled up with that world
of elven mystique
of simple joys
of intimate charms

overwhelming, fleeting
a touch of bliss
a touch of being, of living

to commit
to be vulnerable
to dance the way of the world.

i feared it all
i feared to hurt him
who patiently cared
i feared to have him and lose him

for i lose sight
of what love is
for i forget
its ways and wonders.

I let it go
I let it free.

I just don’t know how to be
I lost how to be.

SUNINGA (When will I see you?)
Richard Bona

And this is my story.

He introduced me to this song. He said it is hard to translate this song but roughly it is a sad song about a man who finds a woman and eventually loses sight of this woman. He goes on and on and looks for this woman in the forest, in the mountains…

I guess the ending is that he never really found her again.

This is my song and it started when I met him. He was a man who made me happy but hurt me along the way. Despite all, I saw in him the purity of what a human being could be… as close to perfectible as the limits of imperfectible is. He would not mean to hurt… so compassionate and yet so strong, so proud and yet so simple, so quiet and yet so meaning… He is so beautiful to the core without knowing it. I admired him and I am still in awe of the way he becomes a better person each day.

I know that for the rest of my life I will be “looking” for this man I once met in my life. Recently, we’ve decided not to talk anymore. I wanted him to fulfill his promises and I wanted him to be trusted. The other side of the coin is that I wanted to stop hurting myself and pretending not be hurt whenever I relive his loss. It was a goodbye that seemed right and wrong at the same time. It was giving up friendship while still vowing to keep it. It was a commitment to deal with our own lives the best we could and to be better people along the way.

I know I will be looking all my life. I will always be wondering if he is ok. I will always be “searching” so that I could bug him about my life’s kid stuff concerns and rebutting him for his sometimes funny logic and insightful claims. I will always be wishing I could listen to his stories about his dear ones and his pretty projects. I will always be looking forward to one day we could be proud and share what better people we have become and yet I know that I will never find him again…

It is a sad song… and a truly soulful one.

I’ve been charged $79 for something I don’t remember that I asked for!!!

Is it internet fraud? I panicked! It turns out I have signed up for the free trial to Amazon Prime and after the trial period has lapsed, Amazon automatically enrolled me to an annual paid membership to Amazon prime. And oh yes, if you look back at the free trial and the fine prints that follow, they did say they would charge me. Grrr…

I GOOGLED for people who had the same problem. Alas. I’m not alone. I saw plans to sue Amazon and discussions on how unfair it was that Amazon was doing this. A lot of people even said that they will never transact with Amazon again.

The bottom line is that I don’t want to have Amazon Prime. I don’t want the yearly $79 charge…

SO WHAT CAN BE DONE? Amazon Prime Membership can be cancelled  easily… and as quite clearly stated in Amazon Prime’s FAQ, the $79 bill can be refunded. HOW?

1 SIMPLY, go to

https://www.amazon.com/gp/subs/primeclub/account/homepage.html

and click cancel account. DONE! You will get your refund in 2-3 days if you didn’t make any Amazon prime purchase in the period you have been automatically enrolled to the Amazon Prime.

2. You can CALL the number:

+1(866)5572820

(I called the number using Skype)

Press
7

And you just give them your email address and request that the Amazon Prime membership be cancelled and your $79 be refunded.

No questions asked. You’ll have your money back.

AND NEXT TIME, read the fine prints