and maybe the drama of it all will never end. and like the Filipino telenovelas, it is that uncanny turn of events that so lingers. and damn, the pain goes on. and you just suffer. and sometimes you question whether you deserve it or not. and you just shame yourself for that protracted course you let this theater go on.
but it is the great protector. pain. to tell you that you are hurt. to tell you that you feel. to warn you that you need protection.
yep, it should be the time of healing from the cause of pain. you build on your defenses. you strengthen yourself. and no matter how long it is, don’t be ashamed. it is long. oh so long. but you know, the drama isn’t just some show. the cause of the pain might still be there. and maybe you cannot admit that. but if something is so deep and so true and it has become a part of you, it is not easy to live without.
don’t be in a hurry. you will survive. without the pain. or forever with it. don’t be ashamed of the drama. and don’t say you’re ok if you’re not. you just tell this world, you will live no matter what.